Friday, January 13, 2012

Loosen The Clogs of Pattern

One of my goal for this new year is to learn better how to pray; rather, to better connect with God.  Since I write as a hobby, I thought writing prayers may be a fresh approach to a sacred practice.  As you read these, please know that God is my intended audience.  I have prayed these words over and over.  I publish these here as a secondary act; praying that maybe some of you may connect with God.
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Loosen The Clogs of Pattern

Where to begin Lord, I do not know.
Prayer sounds simple yet it is so hard.
The words do not come, my mind locks up tight.
My best it seems are words lazy and rote.
Why can't I converse like you are right in the room?
I have learned you are here and believe it is true.

I want to experience my moments with you.
Lord, let me get lost in my sharing.
I am feeling and thinking so much --
plans, dreams, questions, frustrations, failures.
You know it all, but in delivery I am bound.
This is foolish not knowing what to say.

Early on I learned to pray a certain way.
Formula and form were impressions of correctness.
Now I am trying to know you deeper,
and talking casually, strangely is not easier.
Pen to paper may loosen the clogs of my pattern.
Lord, please know, my heart is open.

Amen.

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